sooooooooo

*sigh*

you know, it really bothers me how unsafe even the web is these days. especially in blogging. if you mention specific entities' names.. they can sue you!

i do not want to be sued. can't afford it. do have some things that i would like to get off my chest though. *sigh*

i remember the following story (broad strokes), and it somehow reflects on my situation:

a man is at his king's court. he learns of some secret of the king's (something embarrassing).

man is forbidden from sharing the secret with anyone, on pain of his life.(?)

man feels an insane urge to tell *someone* about the secret.. so he goes into the forest and finds a tree with a hollow, and speaks the secret into the hollow.

some later point, the tree is cut down to make a drum to be played in the king's court.

the drum is played and it repeats the secret that the man had spoken into the tree...

man --> fucked!?!!

i miss the panchatantra and akbar and birbal's stories. they were awesome.

must clean!

it's been a long time since i wrote here and i need to procrastinate doing my cleaning chores, so, here i am!

pandora rocks. i should get back to cleaning. been watching an insane amount of Charmed. love that show..

wow! people on the net have a heart..

i was googling some dubious content.. and i came across this post on answer.yahoo where someone was lonely and just wanted to talk - and there were a lot of people that had responded.

as easy as it is for some people to behave like complete asses, given the anonymity of the net, there are some people who still remember what it is to be human.. touching..

sink to the bottom..

I wanna sink to the bottom with you
I wanna sink to the bottom with you
The ocean is big and blue
I just wanna sink to the bottom with you
Coz on the highway...

Everyone else is going somwhere
But I'm going nowhere
Dead in the zoo
I might just as just, sink down with you

I wanna sink to the bottom with you
I wanna sink to the bottom with you
The ocean is big and blue
I just wanna sink to the bottom with you
And i just wanna..
*guitar*

Out on the highway,
Up in the air,
Everyone else is going somewhere
They're going nowhere
Down in the zoo
I might as well go under with you

I wanna sink to the bottom with you
I wanna sink to the bottom with you
The ocean is big and blue
I just wanna sink to the bottom with you
I just wanna sink to the bottom with you
I want to sink to the bottom with you
The ocean is big and blue
I just want to sink to the bottom with you
I just wanna...
I just wanna..
I just wanna..
I just wanna..
*guitar*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nM1UD0f7rXw

Love that song!

lonely, again.

wow! stress induced loneliness and depression are rough on the system. i am really pretty upset right now. after all this time, when being with someone doesn't even mean phone time - what the fuck is the point of any of this?

i feel really alone right now.

yeke yeke...

i'm in south carolina, believe it or not. have been here for the past 10 or so days. mostly good days. life is strange. i even went to charleston, never thought that'd happen.

i'm back at that point in life, where i want to write and express, but there is a bottleneck somewhere, and the words just aren't coming. i'll just say that spending time with a person comes with fantastic rewards and some unexpected/painful costs. 

wish i could say more. guess i am still sorting things through in my head. 

and i'm back to typing and deleting. *sigh*

panic and the curse of the procrastinator.

i'm here again. having procrastinated something very important i am experiencing extreme distress/panic. despite this, i am wasting my fucking time writing this stupid fucking post. why? coz i feel lonely right now. i'm going to just sit and churn out six fucking pages. it will fucking get done.