life is hectic... in spots... it is piecewise continuous in its hecticacity, actually... (i know hecticacity isn't a word... i'm a rebel... i make up words..)
life is also oddly unsatisfying... i am unbelievably enamoured by Lifehouse's Storm.. i long for a feeling of security, comfort and support... but at the same point a couple of weekends ago, i learnt one of life's most telling lessons of all... that what your heart and head tell you at a given moment don't necessarily reflect your true feelings.. rather, your true feelings are subject to fluctuation and to ignore this reality is to leave oneself vulnerable to painful revelations further along the road that lead up to the.. "what the fuck was i thinking" moments in life.... (i had one of those during said weekend.. and since then have been gradually reeling in the shock of it... amazed at how wrong i was in the past... at the same time, its opened up a lot of old wounds and confused me anew on some matters that i was finally starting to bury..)
soo, i guess what i'm saying is... that i'm confused and unhappy... but at the same time, i realize that all of this is ephemeral and fleeting...and that soon i won't feel this way... that's just how life rolls...
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