what doesn't kill you wiill make you stronger...

that's what my advisor told me when i broke the news to him that i made a b+ in my linear controls class. i do this awesome thing of suppressing my anger and releasing it gradually, in short bursts. its about the most passive aggressive thing ever, but its the only way that i know to deal with contentious issues. i'm extremely angry with both my professors this semester. i assess them to be C- professors. (i'd grade them lower, but this is graduate school, any lower and they'd be out of schoo! ;-) ) its a huge let down to be taught by anal mathematicians who take the beauty of the theory out of the subject by focusing only on the wheel cranking. i mean, i sat there asking one of them for like 45 minutes, "i understand the math involved in making a stable observer, but where is the observing happening?" and the ruddy dude could not elucidate! wtf!!
(in his defense, he's a newbie prof. and apparently a career mathematician who should not be let lose in an elec. engineering faculty, but whatever..)

from an A- to a B+... boy, its been a long journey these past few months. but, at the end of the day, i'll take my advisor's advice and leave it be. as he would say, all's i gotta do now is wait for the other shoe to drop and see how i did in nonlinear controls. *sigh*

i don't care... worked too hard and too long to care about the results. its time to get done with my own grading so all my obligations for the semester are done with. i love seu jorge from zissou's soundtrack, he has such an earnest voice. i think the langour in his voice is kind of sexy! :-P

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Now playing: Timbaland - Apologize
via FoxyTunes

*Evil laugh* Mwahahhahahaha...

Tis a wonderful invention, is technology... especially the internet... it lets you see so many things...

I logged into my LinkedIn account to realize that
a. apparently they now log visitors to profiles...
b. someone i used to work with very closely, that i didn't have any personal interest in except for the fact that he basically carried me through my work, has quit the job! he takes with him a colossal store of experience and knowledge.. and the evil entity that i worked for is surely severely crippled due to his desertion. (though they put food on my plate for a few months, i rejoice in the thought that my friend has moved to a happier life.. to a job where his efforts are appreciated and his initiative is justly rewarded)

someone else from the company had spoken to me about the rats jumping ship... and it seems. that the ship is sinking still and the smart rats are making a run for it... i hope for my friend's sake that he sees the wisdom in jumping ship as well and finds greener pastures to move on to.. and soon.. life is short!!

i finished a final today. it was an evil class that made me extremely unhappy. i don't like it when i have to play a game where the odds are inherently slanted towards everyone else but me, and my little band of laggards. games like that are no fun!

tuesday, though, is a totally different ball game! tuesday i'll be tested in a class that gave me a fighting chance of being top dog.. *cheesy soap opera music*... and this coming tuesday.. we'll find out... will she maintain her A- or will she manage to bump it up to an A... or... *extreme orchestra music* will she drop to a B or worse!!!!

I'm insanely in love with David Guetta's Baby when the lights go out... (Garraud & Rister remix, in particular). I really wish that I had a friend who was into this sort of music here. Then we could go to a club and just get lost in the beat. I loved this club called Masquerade in Atlanta.. it was fabulous...


I am taking a break from final mania today... hooray!!!