i need a friend.

here, now, someone who understands and listens and speaks back and *wants* to be friends and share. i promised myself i wouldn't cry this week, but i'm just feeling crushed by this wall of adversity that seems to be projecting itself into my path, no matter what direction i turn. my optimism is failing me, of course! i'm the girl who cried charleston! within the last week and half, everything i have touched by way of planning for the future has turned to dust. i give up. it can't be all about a car.. i can't believe that a car can right so many wrongs..

i'm hitting my breaking point. think i need a rescue soon. thank god for sedatives.. and my brother for prescribing them to me.