i'm ok now.

just in case anyone is reading and concerned..

i quite literally have novocaine for the soul.. (sedative to sleep)... and resignation..

whatever comes will come.. i will get through it as i have gotten through everything else in life. for now there is last request..

i felt the need to come back and re-edit this post. sorry, vaiby, i am trying to keep my promise of not overthinking. i just slip up sometimes. what i wanted to say is this: i know i have been whining a lot of late - in fact, been whining for a good deal of time. its a habit i am trying very hard to break. i really hate myself for whining as much as i do these days, its not who i am.