some part of me wonders.. what's my escape route.. what's the sniper?

tidbits from my driver's training class:
sniper = any vehicle/pedestrian/animal in your path that you could possible collide with
escape route --> pretty obvious

so.. it seems that this blog shall soon be abandoned.. probably not.. i still don't have people that like hanging out with me here.. (that is pretty pathetic/self-serving, isn't it?)... in pursuit of happier goals.. such as being happy.. and finding places of happiness in charleston..

my cynical mind can't help but wonder what can go wrong between then and now..
1. somehow i could go bankrupt overnight/overweek... no money to buy the car
2. wachovia may not be open on saturday to give the guy a cashier's cheque
3. car may crap out
4. i may crash car on my journey back here from sweet atlanta..
5. my plane carrying me to atlanta may crash..
6. my car may get stolen saturday night in atlanta
7. i may get caught speeding on my way here and it may crush my confidence
... so on and so forth..

it was so nice having ashish and julie be in town this weekend. it was nice to be around people and laugh and see them laugh with you. granted that the weekend has achieved epic status by fact of my having earned my driver's license... but it was nice to be around friends.

once i get my car.. i am going to spend a few weeks with a fluid schedule, studying for the .NET examination. once that's done with, i am going to volunteer with a local animal shelter and pretty much volunteer for everything under the sun.. also, went to Sullivan's Island beach yesterday with ashish and julie.. liked it.. forgot how nice it was to walk along the beach with my feet in the water.. may need to buy an mp3 player at some point.. more money to be bled.. probably buy it once i have paid off the car + bought an air ticket to waco, tx.

i am trying very hard to train my mind and heart. to accept the status quo and find some semblance of peace of mind. "i hear in my mind all of these voices. i hear in my mind all of these words. i hear in my mind all of this music.. and it breaks my heart!"

i'll be fine. the fudnaavis mobile will be here come sunday.