Danger captured in sound..

I recently found a copy of some of my music CDs from 2002 and 2004. Its interesting to see how one's music collection changes with time. Anyway, I came across Massive Attack's Dissolved Girl. I remember this track very, very well. It was one of my "coding" songs. I remember many a night spent at the College of Computing (CoC) when I would start my all nighter with this song. This song captures the "coding" frame of mind for me.

Code can be so powerful, like any medium of language!! Code could save lives or take it - depends on the competence and intentions of the person writing it. This song embodies the concept of danger - mortal or otherwise. Its the mother of "shit! i could kill someone with any single of my actions" (which is strange for me to feel - I don't even play violent computer games other than PacMan and other nerdo- DOS based stuff!!) songs. I just wrote and deleted that I am not a psycho/weirdo - but who would believe me? For what its worth though, I think I am borderline normal with a touch of kookiness, nothing malignant or malicious :)

This is arguably my favourite song from the Matrix soundtrack. When I'd open my code editor to this music, I'd feel these uber-cool euro-punk sunglasses descend on my face and I felt like this is it - the night is mine, I am here to get this shit done... and I am gonna!! If I sound like a nerd, so be it.. you need something to get you through a night of coding, and this song was one of the many crutches that I leant on to get through college.

Speaking of ubercool europunk sunglasses, I miss my hippy, John-Lennon circular, blue sunglasses terribly!

Anyway, I have not accomplished any task from my agenda. I have enough clean clothes to carry me through a couple of days more and Sadoff is someone I need to attack in a completely positive frame of mind, so I am pushing that to Wednesday.

I am now reading Vikram Seth's An Equal Music: A Novel. It is depressing, maybe that's why it is appeals to me - misery loves company!! It is also about a break up - *shrug*. I don't have much to say on the subject of breakups, except that with people with courage, atleast, it is an active, yes, this is what is up sort of deal. My only experience in this department dragged on for years and I am sure I have still not dealt with all my anger on that subject yet. Does it even count as a breakup when the other person never loved you, ever?

I have decided that once Mr. Darcy comes into my life, for so my long awaited and still not on the horizon car will be christened (or hindued?), I am going to start volunteering like crazy!! It will be good to be wanted and appreciated.

Here's to a week of liking work, getting to work whenever the fuck I choose and enjoying the wonderful new books that I bought this weekend!!!