ack... cleaning....

so, i am procrastinating cleaning. my friends are due in about 3 hours. still have the bathroom to clean, the kitchen to clean, the dishes to do, laundry to do and the area to vaccuum. ack!!! ick!!! eeewww!!!

i was thinking about how ridiculous a person i am for posting to the blog every few hours. always been scared of being intellectually bankrupt and just being full of conversation and bluster. to translate, i'm afraid that i'm just full of shit and an uninformed idiot that doesn't read enough.

i don't think i will ever willingly/happily take a management position for that reason. i think managers are mostly full of shit. i like my boss, but he's an exception to most managers i know. i think when you lose touch with actually doing things and making things happen, you lose a basic sense and feel of competence. you just have to accept other peoples' bs and work with that - or call them on their bs and then there is the nice little pressure-tactic game to play.

one of the other things that really scares me is when people use super technical jargon. i am much more of a "thingamajiggy/thingy" terminology sort of person. sure, push come to shove i could probably pull the proper terms out of some corner of my brain. but i feel like i am someone who has skated around on extremely thin ice and been extremely mildly successful in convincing people of marginal intelligence based on pure bs skills. hopefully i learnt something somewhere.. hopefully i am not merely crapulous. (my usage of that word is actually technically incorrect, imho. but its a word like deletrious, you may use it incorrectly and still communicate your thought effectively. ;) of course this assumes that your audience isn't well read enough to notice you faux pass. i think its a safe assumption 9.5 times out of 10 :P )

wow.. amazing how much i will talk to avoid stupid laundry etc. no time, no time. friends coming in 180 minutes or so. not a second to spare!!!