this is not a good time... i don't feel good..

its ironic that my one reason for moving to charleston is the reason that i am getting booted from the country. i feel like i am being stripped of all my future prospects for a decent career and happiness. i have no rights to this country, legally anyway. but i have always wondered, do i have any rights to this country, that are non-legal? (goes back to the ayn rand thought of owning something in some way if you see some potential in it.)

i am terrified of roller-coasters. i will ride them out of sheer stubbornness (i refuse to be cowed by most things), but i have rarely enjoyed it. i don't scream loudly, its all in my head. i am a silent screamer. :) charleston is one roller-coaster ride that is starting to make me nauseous. wish to god i had never come here. (and yes, i am agnostic and still said "wish to god", it is just an expression to me. get over it.)

i need some positivity in life.