strange how things happen..

apparently my salvation (so to speak) may lie in getting a job with a non-profit. i am going to try to make the most of it.

i wish i could say what's in my heart. wish i could get that release and hopefully feel better for it. right now, there is only silence on the outside and a rush of thoughts and emotion within.

wish i had my own planet and that i didn't have to deal with a single other human being. that money was not an issue. that i had books, music and movies on my planet. (the mechanics/logistics aren't important, its a fantasy.) basically people without the hassle of having to deal with them.

as thom york of radiohead so elegantly says... "no alarms and no surprises..."

*peace*