rockets in the sky

i've begun a new thought/life experiement - trying to focus on the big picture ramifications of any situation before completely freaking out and pressing the panic button. helped at work today. if they fired me today, it'd basically preempt an action that is about to occur in roughly 6 weeks time. Ofcourse, this would mean that I'd forfeit that most important requirement while searching for a job, a good recommendation by your last employer.

anyway, 'nuf said about that. i stumbled across some truly mindblowing electronica a long time ago on launch and then re-stumbled across it on youtube this past week. in a very bass loving phase right now, so this works out well for me. will say this though, the group i am listening to currently has music videos that most definitely merit the "adult viewing only" tags that have been attached to them. i have never watched porn in my life - but this is definitely up that alley, so i think i'll erase the porn-virgin label from myself.

and oh, speaking of stumbling into videos - i stumbled upon some, to put it crudely, tranny music. it scared me a little. the whole gender-bending thing is so intense. i have nothing against it, a la seinfeld, not that there's anything wrong with it. its just that it must take a lot to say "i'm going to show genetics the finger and get rid of my hoohoodilly (or chacha)"!!! (refer - south park episode about cartman finding his father) a lot of courage of conviction, to say the least. random thought, a sexchange operation could qualify as a sterilization procedure!

on yet another random note, i think someone at work mistook me for a lesbo. umm, honest to goodness, i don't know what the hell to make of that!! it does make me laugh, though. i was listening to a show on npr that janeane garafolo was a guest on. and she said something about getting typecast into roles of the bitter, cynical, wise-cracking dyke. (am i allowed to say that word without being a bigot? also, interesting to think of the etymology of that phrase being used in this context.) i just thought it was interesting that there are stereotypes for just about everything under the sun - the nattily dressed gay dude, the bitter and agressive dyke, the shabbily dressed / nerdily unattractive computer geek hetro (and ofcourse, porn comes into the picture for all three of these caricatures), the argumentative jew, the super-uptight WASP, the smelly/hairy indians (1. i am referring to guys here 2. the smelly epithet is applied to basically anyone from a foreign country, generally in from asian countries/the middle-east/france), the bad drivers who just happen to be asians and even worse drivers if they happen to be females, the sleepy mexican...

i don't think i am going anywhere with this now... (not that i ever was...) but i think i am just listing stereotypes at this point... need dinner and some shut eye!!!