yeah.. i'm a loser.. its the third post for the day...

whatever... i need to finish my "talking quota" for the day... its needs be finished.. and finish it i shall..

i have always tried the whole "raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens... these are a few of my favourite things" strategy... on a few occasions i have actually sung the song to make myself feel better. must say that i have had a lukewarm response to said strategy. maybe i'm not doing it right?

anyway, right now, i must needs imagine a happy time and happy situations. want to work for a relief agency at some point in the future. i looked at the UN's website in 2000. it seemed a little too complicated and demanding. i want to work at the grass-root level. see my work make a difference in people's lives. connect with people and be a part of their life. that's going to be where my journey finishes.

before i reach destination finale, i want to stop by europe. once on a backpacking trip and once for an extended period, in a nice, snow-capped mountain filled country - like switzerland. speak the local language like a native. know the streets like the back of my hand. know their culture. know their history. know the vegetarian food of that country inside out. have friends in the land where i am living. read, go to the theatre, go dancing, go hiking, drive across the country, appreciate the nuances of the different cheeses - happiness!!!

before that, i want to excel at my technical profession. also dabble in professional writing. see if i can manage to direct that play in india that i always wanted to. pick up drawing again, write a few poems that i am not embarassed of. try different things. be friends with worthy people. be worthy of the worthy friends. live a decent life that involves no malice towards anyone else.

hopefully my brother will have a son and a daughter. i have two nephews and they are awesome and i love them to death. however, i think little girls are the sweetest things in the world! i wouldn't change a diaper, but i'd buy them all the cutest outfits in the world and pick them up and carry them around. come to think of it, i'd do that for any baby, independent of gender. babies are awesome to hold. don't get me wrong, i have no desire of birthing a kid - i just like holding other people's kids.. i refuse to get a much desired cat because i refuse to handle the kitty litter stuff...

oh wow... this is just depressing me...

bloggy, *hug*