cry baby cry.. make your mother sigh...

to the uninitiated, those are the words from a quiet beatles song. my face started leaking at about 5am this morning, leaked at work too, a couple of times. i am scared of what the future holds, or doesn't hold! i have seen the worst time that i will ever face in my life and its a few years in the past now. i know that except for life itself, everything else in life is secondary. my family is fine and my health isn't too bad right now, that is the most important thing. i feel alone and lonely here, but i will get through that too.

i am trying very hard to hang on to a balanced perspective and recognize that everything is all right and is going to continue being all right. its like mercury said.. "nothing really matters at all" (bo rap)

if anyone out there wants to say a prayer for me, pray that all my wishes come true! ;)