olivia joules..

one of her rules of living.. "don't think about anybody else, because nobody is thinking about you"...

expendibility, replacability.. words that i have never appreciated as much as i have this week. its quiet an experience having someone come up to you and talk about replacing you at your work...

i accept that it is hard to understand the complexities and issues of anyone else's life. but, wow! that felt really, really brutal. i'd say it teaches you your worth in life, but i know there is more to measuring a person's worth than their immigration status. its just that even though i don't have a home anywhere on this planet.. this place was so much closer to happiness than india is.

i have wiggled out of a lot of tight spots before.. had my fair share of luck.. maybe it just ran out.. or maybe something is going change.. and i'll wiggle out again.. who knows..

i heard daniel powter's had a bad day.. it appeals to me today.

i'd say soy un perdedor.. but it seems really superfluous at this point.. talk about a local minima! the second order derivative of the curve of life right now is definitely equal to zero.. and i'm not a local maxima, i can tell you that!! i belong in graduate school, its the only place where loserly nerds like me should be...

I hope nobody that shouldn't be reading this post is reading this post!