sos

i remember when i got back to the us in spring 2002, i used to cry every day in the shower for about 15 minutes. i'd take about 2-3 showers a day too. i felt like life had veered off-course, that my family was really far away and unable to help me in any truly meaningful way and that i was all alone. i think i cried my way everyday right up to august, when i finally got some help and things started to turn around.

well, i've been crying for the past few days now. i know the circumstances aren't the same,
thank god for that. life is a bitch. a true whore. i need a break. i want to be happy for some time. i thought this phase of my life finally heralded calmer, happier times. bitch!!